We are all beholden to our parents. No matter how hopeless or useless we may feel, it should never be to take our own life. Haiz so young so 可惜。The best way of showing filial piety is to be healthy and good.
And on a separate note, i wonder. If the love of my life is to live to a hundred, would I hope to live to a hundred minus one day, so that I don't have to suffer the pain of losing him? Or would I hope to live to a hundred and one, so that he doesn't have to face the pain of losing me?
***but this is such a lame question to ponder. I should sleep.